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(Thursday, October 25, 2007-)
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# here it comes..-
been somedays not blogging...busy? nah.... not so i guess...well holiday is 2 more weeks counting....
finally a break...
whats up so far in my life hm noting much. but yeah its getting clearer now as inuation between me and her.. told my dad the real situation can see that he is kinda of dissapointed but lets face the music.. life was never fair....its a big paradox.
well im feeling way better now.. really.. for all the while im missing her and really need her...now i feel that i just have to let time heals.... time is everything for me now.. quote dad" you have done all that you can do to change and be better for her. if it doesnt comes back than thank everything that she had made you realize your mistake" well i agree to that a statemet. shamira thank you dear for making me for what i am now..
im listening to this song by bread titled if... well on of the best love song i ever heard...somehow...i still miss her presence in my life....
dear...
i know that its a million times i want you in my life....but out of that million times there is this one THIS one time i would really really really want you in my life.... missing you dear little star...
love ellf
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(Tuesday, October 23, 2007-)
+8:16 AM]*
# dan i stand to let it go??-
today was an ok day i guess.... arghhh i guess i jus need something to throw my anger and jealousy toooo.......
like who wow he is so "romantic" yar maybe im not...for everything i am... but thats ok i guess... cauz im who i am ...i will be this way and that makes me special.. im no sweet talker like all the guys.. talk so sweet for what....to get laid cheaply??? f@#^ off... really....
i used to be that sweet talker guy..but guess why im not like that no more....cauz i dont want to break your heart.... saying all those things just to make you feel that i love you.... well i know that they are more things one can do...to prove how much you love someone....
can someone sweet talk the rest of his life???? yar say im immature or sum thing....i really dun mind no more... maybe im too dull honest and just to straight about life... tELL me i dont deserve you at all because i dont do sweet things..??
did i never do sweet things....? life....was never fair and will never be.....
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(Sunday, October 21, 2007-)
+9:37 PM]*
# i cant stand not trying...-
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(Friday, October 19, 2007-)
+7:05 AM]*
# what can i do..-
today was like an other usual day nothing much. as usual school with all the meetings... however there was something different today. my dragon boat team feel like it is falling apart. people are quiting and its hard for me to let it happen so a meeting was held up and i guess we are working to this problem together.
i am hearing this music by the corrs.. i think it is a very very nice song. its what i would want to say to shamira for al my life..and its all written in words. read the lyrics it might inspire hear the song tooo...
I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we have talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what i'm doing wrong
Chorus:
What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there
There's only so much I can take
And i just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better yeah
If I don't try and I don't hope
(Chorus)
No more waiting, no more aching,
No more fighting, no more trying...
Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just gonna let it fly
(chorus, 2x)
Love me Love me Love me..
if you peeps have heard this song than thats great its a very2 nice song. and to the little star i always like..this one yeah this song if for you
especially for you....
sometimes i feel so guilty for jennifer. like hell i feel like i broke up her feelings in a million pieces.. its like is it because i always break peoples heart
that i end up to have such a karma. maybe..bu even if i do.. star would feel hurt i guess....but hell yeah im hurt... ever since i vowed to
be for her...i will always be..till the end....i just want to be truthful and pure to her... my little star.....
well for all that it is... i just dont know.. i think she has a new guy that loves her as much and she admits that she liked her... who ma i to object...
im walking on already...sad....
life oh please be merciful to me and give me another chance...human make mistakes....oh god please....
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(Wednesday, October 17, 2007-)
+7:08 PM]*
# walk the walk...-
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i miss you dear...im sorry
my understanding test is gong to be over soon. means holiday is coming. Alot of things happen in my life so far.. sometimes i feel lost. to start with. i met my ex yesterday. wow finally. she is so sweet and adorable like she used too..we met to study. wow she is getting smarter and i feel so happy for her. marked her maths paper and it was good.. excellent.. shamira you really have improved.
Funny tough yesterday when i met her firdaus call her. wah so romantic sey she.. but somehow i feel so jealous don't know why maybe because i still do like her. yesterday i talked to her everything . like finally i express almost everything to her. and i cried last night cauz i felt stupid. stupid to be making this those mistakes. like my dad said to me. " boy why do you treat her that way when all your life she was there by your back!" whenever i think about it i really2 feel like an idiot. shamira..
i realize my mistake and i will never do it again.. im sorry . for now i really am lost. like i really want shamira back in my life and be a normal couple and be happy. since i realize my mistakes ....i never would want to do it again on the other hand i feEl so bad that i dont feel that i deserve her.. to my dearest shamira. i pray for your happiness.. in whatever you do. please forgive me for everything i have done wrong to you. i do always love you. maybe i have told you that a million times. but i realize that money and words is not love is all about.... i accept all my wrong doings...i deserve all this...
feeling so emotional. OH GOD.... FOR ALL THE THINGS YOU GAVE ME....ALL I WANTED WAS HER!....please do everything to me.. show me to be with her again....
lost and in despair..
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(Tuesday, October 16, 2007-)
+9:32 AM]*
# school to date...-
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+9:02 AM]*
# pictures of raya 2007-
i have loads more to upload but havent
git the time yet. have to study...shit ut.
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(Saturday, October 13, 2007-)
+7:20 PM]*
# hari raya 2007-
i will up load more pic soon i have got to go visiting again....arghhh so tired
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+8:15 AM]*
# hari raya and the days before-
hey hey. its been awhile i have not been blogging. been very busy this few days. hari raya was coming and school was tedious. today was the first day of hari raya and hell it was a bad day. first and for most let me start with what happen before raya came. well as normal im so missing my ex girlfriend. sometimes i do try to message her like million times lah but seldom she replies. maybe she is busy or something, but im kinda sad that it only happen to me like if it was her friends it would be a different story. like im not her friend. i guess too sometimes. has they say once you are apart things will be totally different. i guess i have to live with it. it hurts me so. sometimes im worried for her and stuff but yar if that is what she wants god bless . moving on. the few days before raya i did alot of spring cleaning and due to this i did not attend school like nearly the whole week lah. so syiok but feel a bit sian. lol aniway my room is so beautiful now and my house is wowowow weeee..... has it is finally dragonboating has a few days holiday for hari raya.. thanks god. today was the hari raya. as usual i went to an-nur mosque to do my prayers it was like damm sooo many people. i was soo tird and sleepy by then cauz the day before i had not enouh rest. as it was written as ssoon as i finish my prayers and reached home i was lying on my bed sleeoing. beleive me those were the best sleep i ever had. we went visiting reletives and all those things till around 10.30pm it was fine after some long times finally i met them happy . i finally am eating man. like the rendang and ketupat so nicee.. somehow today and till dont know when i still miss the loving nature of my ex. but tonight i will not think about her no more. since its a new month in islamic calender. i really want to move on. i still do love her and forever will but i cant hide the pain its hurting im like no body to her. ok lah ellfiz stop being emo....hahahahahhaha i think thats all i would want to write today tomorrow going back to hari raya visiting and stuff... chaw.
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(Tuesday, October 9, 2007-)
+3:25 AM]*
# new to this world-
my ex and me.... i miss you.
well im like finally making a blog how funny is that. WHAT a blog!! well well ok.. guess its out of boredom or sumthing. ok ok.. im like so stress dont know why. dont ask why. just feel so much thing i have to do. well introducing myself to the world out there. im hafiz. you peeps can call me elfiz lah.
im currently studying in republic polytechnic taking biomedical science. as it is im single. well just broke off. after like 4 years . well could be the reason why im feeling this was. trying to forget her. but hey i love her sooo damm much lah. memories and everything that we used to share. im having flash back and everything but i don't blame her for breaking up with me. life after post secondary is so different. well my ex.. I MISS YOU!!!
im moving on with life now. but hell those memories with you were so beautiful. i miss you sulking at me and you being with me. i hope you are doing well out there my mango.... damm. i think thats all i can blog for the momment i will update soon. i have to go study some
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i miss you dear...im sorry
i have loads more to upload but havent
i will up load more pic soon i have got to go visiting again....arghhh so tired
my ex and me.... i miss you.